There is no honor in a civil war.
No glorious and triumphant return.
Even if the right side wins, there’s still a long way to go.
I fall to the sweets that please my mouth but do not nourish my body.
I fall to the desires of the flesh while ignoring the needs of my soul.
I fall to the hypocrisy of my actions that do not follow the righteous words of my mouth.
I fall night after night into the dirty sheets of my bed.
I do not make it easy for my heart to beat.
I do not make it simple for my lungs to breathe
I can only pray that The LORD leads me back to the path that I have fallen away from.
That I stepped away from.
I stove for an unattainable victory and found nothing but defeat at every turn.
I can’t promise that I’ll be any better tomorrow than I was today.
I don’t know how far I’ve fallen.